Day one of my cleanse and I will be honest, it has not been my favorite day. I woke up at 5 to go to yoga and felt wide awake and full of energy. I decided that even though I wasnt tired, I would let myself sleep in since I was planning to go to yoga this evening with my daughter and I knew I would have time to run today. After falling back to sleep I found it nearly impossible to wake up in time to get my kids off to school and myself off to work. I was so exhausted!
Somehow I survived the morning without coffee but wrote in a text to my friend Thea that I felt like a zombie version of the stay puff marshmallow man. I felt hazy and slow and disoriented most of the morning. Upon waking I made the kicharee but did not have time to eat it in the morning. I had a half a cup of plain rice milk mixed with the tri cleanse powder, vitamineral greens and vitamin C powder and took the tumeric pills. I ate about a one cup serving of the kicharee with a little warm raw kale at 12 pm between massages and at 1:00 I went for a 4.5 mile run. I felt sluggish and slow on my run, and wished for most of it that the endorphins would just kick in and make it all worth while- but alas, I didn’t quite run long enough to get past the inertia.
I then had to endure a trip to the grocery store to grab something for my kids to eat for dinner that wouldn’t make me think too hard, and while there I wandered around the store aimless and numb. I ended up in the produce section staring at the apples. They were so big and so delicious looking I could hardly stand it. They literally started calling out my name and leaping into my basket. It was amazing. In the car driving home I suddenly remembered that one of the Ayurvedic cleansing sites I found while google surfing last night, clearly stated that during a fall cleanse apples can be eaten along with the kicharee. I remember thinking at the time that this didnt seem like a good idea to me- I liked the purity of only the kicharee and a few greens. Apples seemed somehow too sweet and delicious to be allowed on a cleanse. But you know what? I decided to listen to my body over all else and it was clearly saying “EAT THE APPLE!” So I did and it was divine. I instantly felt more grounded and less spacey and more … happy. After I got home and cleaned my house, I ate a few more bites of kicharee to ward off the hunger, being careful not to eat too much since there is nothing worse than an ashtanga yoga class when you have food digesting in your belly. Really.
Hopefully I will survive my yoga class and get to bed at a reasonable time. Emotionally I have felt a beautiful sense of peace and quiet mixed in with the gentle suffering and mild fatigue. It feels like a thick layer of numb yuck is beginning to peel away and I know that this can only be uncomfortable in the process, and that once it is out of me, I will feel much more clarity and energy and joy.
