Holding on and letting go

I’ve been contemplating the state of the world lately, how it is equally important to focus on the best possible outcomes, as it is to face the tragedies. This became obvious to me today when my daughter who is visiting the east coast right now asked if she could call me and tell me about a dream she had the night before. When we talked on the phone she mentioned that she had heard about the serial cat killer in our area and she wanted to make sure our cat was ok.

She told me she had looked it up on our online newspaper where she happened to read that a woman was beaten to death outside our local pizza shop and that an innocent store clerk was stabbed in the throat multiple times by an irate customer. All in the past few days.

I have been observing this increase in violence, homelessness, and drugs. I have listened to the stories of my clients, friends, and children. The traumatic things they are witnessing in this small town. The state of the overall decline of things makes my heart ache.

My next client arrived before my daughter could tell me about her dream and even though that is why she called me, I had to get off the phone and go back to work. But she couldn’t let it go. She needed to tell her story so bad that the words started pouring out of her as fast as she could speak. In the ten steps, it took me to walk from my back porch to my desk where my client was waiting, she had described her dream in elaborate detail.

It had to do with finding an innocent bunny while the whole world became an apocalyptic scene falling apart all around her. She had to run with the bunny in her arms fleeing for safety.

Later after I finished work I started to feel the energy of my day and how it related to her dream which seemed to be informing me on some deeper level like it was an echo of the conversations I’d been having with clients, friends, and colleagues. So many events, political, personal and ecological seem to be coming to the surface like some kind of purging. Like a wound that is infected and oozing. 

My daughters’ dream has a familiar quality. It feels like it belongs as much to her as to the world in some way. I think we all know what it feels like to hold onto something innocent and vulnerable, to try to keep it safe. I have that feeling every time I hear her talk about the things she sees and has to deal with. I want to hold on to her even if I can’t outrun the world. 

I told her what I know about the power of our dreams. That it is often the thing we are trying to outrun that we need to turn and face. Usually, it is our own transformation that is chasing us.

We can’t keep outrunning ourselves. Sometimes we have to stop and ask what it is that needs to fall apart, and what it is we need to let go of personally.

And  sometimes our dreams are also telling a story about the collective.  
Our dreams are not always just our own because we do not exist alone. 
We are a part of a greater community and we dream for each other. When my daughter couldn’t help but tell me her dream, I recognized it as the kind of dream that needed to be told. That needed to be listened to, honored and shared. Some dreams are like that.

Recently there was a mother Orca near where I live who carried her dead baby for 17 days. She traveled over 1,000 miles with it. Because of her unusual behavior, and the fact that her species is endangered due to lack of food and pollution, her grieving ritual became national news. It was only a few days ago when she finally let her baby go. 

When my daughter told me about her dream, I thought about the mother whale holding her dead baby. I thought of all the mothers and the collective fatigue we feel from all the running. And I thought of the great journey that it takes to find completion around our grieving. Whether we are trying to outrun or recover from our tragedies, we are all sharing the same dream. 

I was so grateful that the public took notice of the mother whale and her dead baby. As a mother, I know that I carry my grief in much the same way. It is not something I can hide easily and I don’t think it should be hidden or let go of too soon. I think we need to be allowed to have it first. 

We need to call it what it is and have the hard conversations with our children, ourselves, our communities.  
Because we as a collective are responsible for what happens to each other. We are responsible for what happened to the Orca baby. We can’t outrun the destruction that we are creating with our pollution, our overconsumption and misuse of natural resources.

It shouldn’t be left up to each individual mother alone to protect her baby. We need to protect them all. Our own and each other’s. Every species. Without exception. We are responsible to witness this for each other and to hear and acknowledge each other’s dreams and nightmares whether they occur while we are asleep or awake. 

I am a firm believer in staying open and receptive to all the possibilities for healing that exist in the face of every kind of hardship. I am a firm believer that everything is perfect. 
It is always good to anchor the positive pole. 

But before we can get there with any integrity, we have to be brave enough to turn around and see what we are running from. We have to be willing to make the long journey, to be thorough with our grieving, to be witnessed and held in it. 

Just the other day I gashed my arm open on a rusty nail. I went to urgent care to make sure it wasn’t serious but simultaneously I knew I would be ok. I trust implicitly in the miraculous way my body knows how to heal. Sometimes a bleeding wound can be scary and painful. Sometimes it looks god awful. I had to tune into my bodies resources and ask myself what felt right. At what point did I need compression and at what point did it need fresh air?

I think all kinds of wounds are like this. All trauma needs to be held appropriately and at some point, it needs to be allowed to breathe. When it was time, I had to take off the bandage and walk around looking wounded so it could heal. I was embarrassed because it was unsightly.  I had to embrace my own vulnerability. Let myself be seen imperfectly.

I know my body knows how to heal itself if I just leave it alone and keep the wound clean. I trust this. But if I was to try to hide it, or was unwilling to acknowledge that it was there, I know it could get infected. That sometimes happens when we don’t acknowledge our wounds. When we don’t give them the attention they need to heal properly.

I am constantly contemplating this for the world.

What can I do to hold space for the wounds I witness?

How can I trust the intelligence of my body, of each being, of the world to heal in its own miraculous way?

 What is the medicine that I personally have to bring to each situation that I am willing to turn and face?

How can I tend to the ugliest of wounds in a good way?

Sometimes it is important to step in and help each other feel ok about being unsightly.

Being wounded can be ok.

And sometimes it isn’t ok and we need to hold the bandage in place for one another, refusing to walk away.

When it is too late to save the ones we love we must learn from the creatures of the water how to grieve.  Like the whale who carried her baby. Not every wound is treatable, but that does not mean there isn’t healing taking place.

All we can really do in the end is hold on tight to that which we long to protect while being brave enough to face the truth, share our process, let ourselves be witnessed.

And only when it is time to let go do we let go.

 

Amanda Lux

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Taking Root (ether of the earth)




Summer in the PNW has taken root. 

Tonight on my evening walk with my dog around the neighborhood I was acutely aware of the contrast between these warm summer nights and all the long months of grey cool dampness. 

All the windows I passed were open and smells of food and the sounds of fans and televisions wafted out.
I had to watch where I stepped to avoid the splatter of fallen plumbs on the ground. 
The Queen Anne’s Lace was growing like large bushes out of the tiniest cracks in the sidewalk and I had to stop and admire their persistence and grit. 

How does one grow so well when there is barely any soil to be had? How does one thrive on practically nothing?

The hardiness and resilience of this flower reminded me of my own journey as of late. I have been spending a great deal of time contemplating the process of manifestation. How does one bring something from thought (out of the ether) into matter (earth)?

For many months I was inundated with visions and inspirations of things I wanted to create. I HAD to create. I worked hard to harness all the potential that seemed to be pouring into me from my highest channel. But I could not bring them to the earth. Completion. The problem?

Time. Space. I blamed my inability to focus or complete my projects or paintings or books or classes, on my lack of time and resources. 

Which is most likely true. 

But watching the Queen Anne’s Lace tonight, merrily reaching for the sun as though it would not take no for an answer, was inspiring to say the least. It seemed to be showing me how the lack of space or nutrients was neither here nor there. 

I wondered,  If it was bound and determined to dominate no matter the conditions, then why couldn’t I?  


But I recently took a break from the pushy, driving, fire energy that had been internally driving me for so long. I stepped back from all the doing and gathering and reaching and striving. I stepped back from my ambition and re-evaluated my roots. 

I had to keep returning to my studio in the woods to paint. I got still. I sat in the sunny spots between the branches in the forest around my studio and listened to the many different species of birds signing all around. My mother informed me that science has proven how the birds’ songs make the trees grow. They are symbiotic. I started to wonder what kind of bird songs make me grow. 
And how my own heart’s song might be of value in ways I couldn’t know. 

Rather than continuing to ask how I could bring the ether to earth (vision to manifestation), I started to wonder about the ether of the earth itself. I contemplated the ways that completion and stillness are related. Endings and beginnings, intertwined. I started to wonder how doing nothing might be the most productive thing I could possibly do. 

As I integrate this spacious quality into my life and make new relationship to my ambition, I look to the Queen Annes Lace and see it doing its thing without trying. I see its roots burrowing between the tiniest cracks, as though the cement is a lush garden. I think it may not need determination or grit. Perhaps it is optimistic. Or maybe it is simply adapting to what is available.
Or perhaps it even needs the confines, boundaries, and limitations in order to thrive. It chose to grow there, after all. 

Owning the tight spaces of life can be uncomfortable. But it can also be rewarding. I often resent the container that holds me, yet without it I would not have the need to do what I long to do. 

For me, this summer is all about this kind of thriving and I invite you to join me in learning from the Queen Anne’s Lace.
Learning how to be spacious regardless of the limitations. 
Learning how to be rooted under all conditions.  
Learning how to belong exactly where we find ourselves.
Learning how to bloom in the sun.

xoxo

Amanda Lux
Above image: Taking Root: Ether of the Earth
Acrylic on wood by Amanda Lux

When you say yes

We carry the unmanifest dreams of our ancestors within our genes… 


They wait silently in our tissues, buried deep inside our bones. 
Hopeful. Patient. Longing.


When our ideas and inspirations match these ancient yearnings, they stir within us. 
Resonance. Vibration. Reactivation.

“We want balance. We want release”, they say. “We want to be reborn in the light of day. We want to know what it is like to speak without reservation. 
To feel without fear. 
To be forgiven. 
We want to dance with wild abandon. 
We want to own property, vote, climb mountains, speak dangerously, sing loudly.  
We want to snuggle, cry, paint, fly.  
We want to grow an empire through you.” 

When we say yes to ourselves, we say yes to all who came and went before us. 
When we say yes to ourselves we save our granddaughter’s granddaughter’s
from having to do it for us. 
When we say yes to ourselves we become way showers to those around us. 
If we can do it, so can they. 

Who are we do dream so big…
We fear the others might say. 

But we are not responsible 
For other people’s limitations.
We are only responsible for our own.

Let them go.
So mote it be
May it be so. 

There is this thing that happens when we are used to hunching over  
(the weight of the world on our shoulders), 
that makes standing up tall seem wrong. 
The muscles that hold our necks up get weak.
The muscles that hold our shoulder blades in place get knotted and stiff.
Pinched off from lack of blood flow, they are hungry and sallow. 
When we try to hold ourselves up with good posture
It feels forced, exhausting, embarrassing, strange. 

Uncomfortable. 

Doing the thing we aren’t used to doing
Even if it is right
Even if it is making us stronger
Taller
Healthier
More visible…

Is uncomfortable. 

And there is this idea in our culture
That being uncomfortable is wrong.
We should only strive for ease. Happiness. Pleasure. 
We’ve bought into this collective numbing.
Even though it isn’t true. 

Ease, happiness and pleasure are temporary fleeting experiences
In the vast sea of experiences. 
They are not destinations. 

Do not forget your truest destinations, 
even if they take more patience than you have

And more forgiveness too.

Our truest destinations may take more work than we are used to
And possibly many lifetimes to get to. 
We might drown several times along the way. 

We must ignore the sirens of the screens
Untangle ourselves from the nets of social media  
(Comparisons,
Feeling less than,
Jealousy)

We must combat the illusion of our aloneness. 
Band together in solidarity. 
Fight for each other’s dreams instead of going to war with those we call ‘other’. 
Fight with our hearts wide open
Instead of closed off 
shut down.
Fight to stop the fighting
the hiding
the excuses. 
Replace the feelings of hopelessness with hope. 


Why not expect great things instead? 

Why not be fierce and righteous 
When you speak up for what you want. 
Be bold and courageous when you fantasize about what could be. 
You can still be humble and bare
When you declare 
That having 
Is ok.

Having anything. Having everything.
Even if you give it all away. 
Even if you keep it and use it all up.

But do not hoard your fantasies
Or hide them in secret
Only pulling them out on a rainy day. 

Throw them around and stomp them into the ground. 

Do not treat your dreams with delicate trepidation.  
Command them into being. 
Dare them to be able to withstand a beating. 

Do whatever it takes. 
Put them to the test.
Scream in the face of opposition.
Be presumptuous. 
Be haughty. 

Then sit back and watch them manifest
As though you knew it all along.
As though you were only finishing the song
That your ancestors started. 

In your own
Delicious
Harmony.





xoxoxo
Amanda Lux
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Eat right for your element

I have been a bit of a food and health fanatic for most of my adult life. It is one of my many passions. Recently, however, I have become less inspired by food than I used to be. Sometimes I have even felt downright indifferent about it until my friend Vanessa came to stay with me during her visit from Colorado. Vanessa announced shortly after her arrival that she was going on a detox. My first response was to eat some chocolate and wish her well. 

But THEN she inspired me. 

My daughter even jumped on board, so all week we have been sharing in the misery and ecstasy that is cleansing. The unexpected part? I have been having so much more fun with my food! It is funny how sometimes it takes having boundaries and restrictions to feel delighted and even free. I believe this is true for many things in life.

Whenever I endeavor to really dial in on my diet, amazing things happen. I understand that the transformative effects of how and why I eat, affect me just as much as what I eat. This is because of the energetics of nutrition.

The energetics of nutrition: a polarity perspective


The Polarity approach to nutrition is not about following a rigid diet that everyone should conform to, although there are guidelines. It is more a perspective than a prescription. As polarity aims to bring balance to the whole being, emotionally, physically, spiritually, mentally, it starts with the underlying principle that gives rise to it all: energy.

Food balances (and imbalances) our energy

When we go through life eating whatever is closest at hand, it is easy to lose touch with the “why” that motivates our choices and the mindset around our eating. Consequently, we often don’t realize how our food is even affecting us. 

The polarity perspective on the energetics of nutrition looks at how your food is working for (or against) you physically. But what you eat is only one part of it. The “why” you eat what you do and the consciousness around it, can often be even more important. 

The more consciousness we bring to our choices,  the more opportunities we have to use our food as medicine. 

Of course being overly obsessive is not healthy either. The aim is to find right alignment. Going with the flow while being tuned in.


For me personally, I can tell I am in balance when I know my “why” around my food choices. This means I am not just shoving things mindlessly into my mouth. 

I can eat well, but I can also take it a step further by choosing foods that will balance me elementally. When I listen to my energy and eat accordingly, my body, mind, and emotions are all being nourished equally. I can trust my intuition and cravings only when I am tuned in to the energetic qualities of my food and how they affect me. Otherwise, I have to question where the cravings are really coming from. Sometimes it is important to stray from the program and cut loose, however, in order to stay in balance. (This means that even chocolate is the best choice sometimes!) 

(…Thank goodness!)


What is the Polarity perspective on proper nutrition?

Although Dr. stone, the founding father of Polarity therapy, was an avid vegetarian who deeply explored the health benefits of cleansing and fasting, the polarity perspective does not insist that everyone should be a vegetarian 100% of the time to fall into the category of balanced. There are all kinds of exceptions to all kinds of rules. However, there are certain guidelines that remain fairly consistent as far as what constitutes a healthy balanced diet energetically speaking, and these have to do with the vibrational value of what you eat.

As fresh living foods carry a higher vibration, the ratio of living to nonliving foods can often affect how much vitality you feel. Raw or steamed vegetables for instance often contain more nutritional value as well as prana or life force energy than leftover, fried, canned or processed ones. Any food that comes in a package or contains additives such as food colorings, preservatives or sugar (in any one of its many sneaky forms), is going to be vibrating at a lower frequency which means it is less life-giving than its fresh, organic counterpart. 

Meat in any form, especially if it was treated unkindly or killed brutally is going to carry the vibration of that fear or mistreatment in its flesh, just like we carry memory, emotion, and consciousness in our flesh. It is pretty simple really. When you eat things that die a sad death, you have to process that energy in your body. This just means it is of a denser vibration and takes more energy to process both physically and psychically.  

The way we process energy is the consistent factor in all aspects of health and well being. The more of your life you have processed emotionally, released, learned from, integrated and healed, the more energy you have for your evolutionary growth and self-actualization. Polarity therapy aims to help the energy process in any and all aspects through the body- our living temple. True health is reflected in all areas of our life as well as our physicality.

When we eat well and feel well, our personal energy stores are not being directed towards recovering from what we just ate. Food can either help evolve us or it can slow us down. 

Eating intentionally for good vibes 

Eating with intention is like getting into your car with a map and a clear destination. Without intention, one might be driving all over the country not really knowing where they are headed. 

Food can be powerful medicine not only for the properties it contains such as vitamins and nutrients but for how it can affect us vibrationally when we eat with intention.

When we eat to fill a hole inside us, the food will affect us very differently than when we eat out of joy and wholesome pleasure. Even if it is the same food, the properties of the food itself can be transmuted, digested, and assimilated differently depending on the emotions and circumstances that went into the preparation and consumption of the food. 

You may have noticed this in your life when you ate something in a hurry under stressful conditions and found it did not sit well in your body. Or when you ate something absolutely decadent and ‘dangerous’ in a harmonious way under positive circumstances that did not have the ill effects it might have on you normally. 

When we pay attention to the conditions around our eating, we have the opportunity to come into harmony with our food so that it works for us instead of against us. By eating intentionally, we not only choose our food more wisely for the benefit of our body, we can choose to eat foods that benefit us energetically as well. 

Eating for elemental balance


Many foods can be eaten on purpose to help balance the chakras. In some ways, this is symbolic and has more to do with your mindset than the health properties of the food itself. For example, if you need to balance your second chakra or your water element then you might eat something orange (that invokes the color of that chakra.) But other times it can be quite literal. (Need more water element in your life? Drink more water!) 

I often prescribe certain foods to my clients to help them balance a particular element in one direction or another (meaning they are excessive or deficient in a particular element).
For instance, if someone is struggling with their digestion being sluggish and slow, or they are having a hard time getting things started or making space for new things to begin or come to completion, I may discover that they have too much earth energy (root chakra). In this situation, I might suggest avoiding things of a denser vibration such as meat, dairy or processed foods. Not because I am judging these foods as less healthy, but because they are denser vibrationally and therefore serve to slow one down. 

If one was feeling flighty, ungrounded, and disconnected from the earth, however, I would say, eat the foods that feel most earthy. Eat red beats, root vegetables, eat dirt! They might be needing more earth in their diet if they can’t focus or be present if they are vibrating too quick and “blowing their circuits”. It can be helpful in this instance to eat more often and eat slower. Eat more fats and things that will anchor you to the world. This is what it means to eat for your element. 

The basic knowledge of which foods support which chakra, combined with a clear intention when choosing and ingesting them, can be tremendously powerful in shifting one’s energy. When our energy shifts, everything else begins to follow. More harmony energetically means more harmony physically, and emotionally. This could mean getting unstuck, resolving old issues and resetting old patterns. This could mean changing one’s life in a positive transformative way. 

By identifying which chakra is ruling the show, you can choose to intentionally feed your energy back into alignment. Once you get on track with a more harmonious alignment, you can trust your bodies cravings to direct you to the most balancing foods. 

Because energy is either expanding or contracting, we are always moving towards health or away from it. Life is not about attaining perfection, but adapting to and meeting the obstacles on our path. We go in and out of phases all the time and are always adjusting to the moment. 

But if you find yourself stuck in a downward spiral and are out of alignment energetically, then it may take a concerted effort to get back in touch with your bodies intuitive nutritional needs (Ahem, speaking from experience). 

We often resist what is good for us because the momentum of that lower vibrational state is going to rule over our cravings and be attracted to the foods that will perpetuate it. 

Once you turn the ship around, however, you will find yourself gaining momentum in the other direction. This not only applies to food, it applies to everything!


We are wired to know how and what and when to eat. It is in our DNA and it is our natural state of being. I often go through phases when I forget this and eating well feels downright complicated and time-consuming! But each time I make the effort to come into greater balance, I remember how gratifying and pleasurable it really is to nourish my whole self. Eating harmoniously can take a little effort at first, but the good feelings that follow are well worth it. Even when you have to put the chocolate away.

I promise!




Amanda Lux


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The neutrality of trees

 

In a polarity session this week, I was reminded of the powerful way that nature teaches us about neutrality and how this can be such an incredible resource for empaths.

Perhaps you have had a time in your life when someone you deeply cared for was suffering. It can be difficult for anyone to witness this, but for an empath who feels other people’s pain as though it was their own, who carries the depths of others sorrows around in their own bones, it can be downright debilitating.

Even when one knows how to differentiate between their own pain and another’s (the first step in not getting overtaken), it can still be hard to let them have their suffering without trying to hold it for them. Especially in familial or intimate relationships, it is common to think that we can somehow help those we love through their trials by taking their problems on. Even the most emotionally or spiritually intelligent people do this at times, as it is part of our learning.

As I sat with my wise empathic client on this occasion,  I was reminded of an experience I had many years ago with a tree. The image just popped into my head in the way that only a medicine story would. I felt my heart softening as I spoke of it.

The story took place during a moment in my life when I was overtaken with feelings of deep sadness for the earth and how humans mistreat it. I was particularly heartbroken over the way trees are carelessly massacred without any thought or respect for their sentience. I wanted to know how the trees could deal with such rampant death and destruction. Were they angry? Were they sad? How could they not be?

So I journeyed to a particularly large and ancient tree who seemed as though it would be wise enough to speak for all the trees. I did this in a quiet meditative state, where I projected my consciousness beyond my body so that I could see and feel and hear the spirit of the tree more easily than I can from my ordinary state of mind.  I asked it to show me how it felt about the way its fellow trees were being treated. I asked the tree for forgiveness for my own humanness and for the wrongs I carried for myself and all my ancestors and relations. I asked if the tree would help me understand how to deal with this heavy sadness that weighed my heart down.

Of course, the tree was not angry or even upset. What the tree conveyed to me instead was a state of total neutrality. It was not concerned with humans or other trees or the earth. It did not need my apologies. It did not need me to carry around my own or anyone else’s wrongdoings. It did not need anything at all from me.

And yet there was a very mutually satisfying exchange that happened between us, simply by my reaching out and saying hello. I learned that my attention was the greatest gift I could give to this or any being. I learned that by simply opening my heart to it, I could feel the kind of peace and neutrality that is so abundant in all of nature. My own judgment seeped out of my body as a new awareness came in. I too could be neutral like this tree.

When I shared this story with my client, I could see that she understood. She was receptive enough to feel the transmission that I had received from this tree or perhaps the tree was now offering itself to her through me. Without my needing to address her issue head-on, she found her way to her own resolution.

Sometimes, perhaps always, the best way to love someone is to let them have their own trials and tribulations, trusting that their suffering is exactly what they need. By knowing that it is from their highest wisdom that they attract these rites and initiations, we honor them.

When we love the way trees love, we do not ask people to be better than they are. When we can sit with the neutrality of the trees, we do not suffer for our own or anyone else’s destruction. When we listen the way trees listen, we hear the bigger story of timelessness and perfection.

 

Amanda Lux

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Learning the language of the soul of the world

“…Intuition is really a sudden immersion of the soul into the universal current of life, where the histories of all people are connected, and we are able to know everything because it’s all written there.” -Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist 

Regardless of whether you currently have a healing practice of some sort or not, having a curiosity about energy and paying attention to the ways energy flows in your own body and in the world around you is well worth exploring. Learning how to follow the energy is the same within a session as it is in everyday life. It all comes down to, “learning the language of the soul of the world,” as Coelho wrote.

If one is curious enough to want to learn this language, or if one has a deep enough desire to become fluent in the phenomenological conversation that gives rise to all things, then learning the principals and practice of Polarity Therapy can provide a wealth of opportunities. Although intuitive development is certainly a big part of grasping the subtleties of energy medicine, Polarity goes much deeper into the study of the art and language of how energy flows. 

Like learning any language, there is a method that involves learning how to read the signs, symbols or artifacts. Over time one builds trust as they become more fluent. This fluency is greatly increased when you engage in the conversation on a regular basis. But following the energy, trusting your intuition to guide you to the most potent place of healing, and being willing to act on the subtle nudges that bubble up from within the field, takes a certain amount of courage no matter how experienced you are. 

In private practice just as in life, this requires mindfulness and a willingness to stay alert and curious. In fact, curiosity may be the most important element of all.

After nearly 15 years of private practice, I still have a moment in almost every session when I wonder what is going on. Where is the energy? What does this person need? 
How do I really know that my intuitive nudges are arising from or for them and are not just figments of my own imagination? But this kind of disorientation is really just a marker that I have entered the mystery. 

Being in the mystery, I have come to realize, is just as powerful if not more so, than thinking I know the exact coordinates of where I am and where I am meant to go. 
I have had to learn how to surrender to the work, surrender to the moment, in order to trust the process of unfolding. In this way, I have come to know without a doubt that the work works. 

Learning to distinguish between intuition and imagination is about as subtle as determining a weed from a flower. It is entirely contextual and subjective. It’s about paying attention to what shows up in the space, and being interested in certain things over others. Where are you called? What stands out? What keeps bobbing up to the surface asking to be noticed? 

When I am following the energy, I am listening with my whole body, to the body and soul of the person I am working with, to the body and soul of the world speaking through me, them, the space, the moment. I believe it is this quality of listening that generates the potential for true healing to occur. The kind of healing that happens inexplicably, not because we think we know how healing should look.

It is natural and important to question everything so we can learn how to recognize our own truth. But there is a difference between curiosity and doubt. It is good to ask yourself which part of you is doing the asking! By letting go of needing to be right about what we see or perceive, by not needing to understand or validate our intuitive insights, we cultivate the trust necessary to truly listen. By honoring things as they are without needing to prove or dissect them, we offer greater respect for the whole of things. For the soul of things. 

More and more, I prefer to dwell in this state of constant curiosity, welcoming these magical moments, so I may step through the portal of mystery as often as possible.  To revel in wonderment. To be constantly intrigued. In this way the work not only works, it ceases to feel like work at all. It feels like play. 


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For the creator in you…

 

 

 


There is an unbelievable resource within you. 
It goes so far beyond what you can possibly conceive- it is limitless. 
Unfathomably glorious
Existing in the creative unconscious. 
It is your birthright to access this.


(because we are made for delighting in simple things
                yet as seekers, we are complex and curious. 
We are made to revel in our own light 
                where endless skies fly us home and
We are made to be wary of the dark, 
                and still venture out alone
into the great unknown 
inside us.

To deep sea dive into our own vast depths
Where creatures wait to devour us
Creatures who are also us.

We are made to harvest our fears with willful vigor
To go towards instead of shrink away

War cries
Make believe
Play. 

We are made to revel in the undefinable.
Where we are wild 
         beneath our pleasantries
Where we dare to push the boundaries.

We have edges
that compel us. 
We have rage that frightens us.
We have tragedies that do not define us. 

All useful fodder for the creations inside us.

For what we have to bring forth
Is greater than us. )


This infinite resource you have access to 
is seeking you. 
What you long for
longs for you 
      you are the vessel
      the channel.
You are the way to bring it through.
You are the creator 
and the creation too.

Amanda Lux

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Be your own guide


I remember learning as a child that many Indigenous peoples specifically the Native Americans as a general rule would ask permission before walking on grass, harvesting a plant, taking down a tree, killing an animal in the hunt. My literal mind marveled at the tedious dedication this must have taken, to ask every blade of grass before walking upon it.

I wondered how I could possibly live like this, asking all the time before taking, stepping, picking, partaking. Because the life I grew up with moved so much quicker and used so many more resources than the native peoples from long ago, I was overwhelmed by this notion. The way I saw it I had two choices. I would either have to live in a perpetual state of heightened awareness, of asking for permission and forgiveness, attempting to remain in right relationship, or I would have to forget so that I could function within the confines of this industrialized capitalist society.

By default, I remembered as often as I could but I forgot a lot of the time. Along with forgetting, I bought into the notion that I was small in the grand scheme of things, singular and somewhat unimportant to the whole. A speck of dust in the vacuum of the universe. This illusion of smallness allowed me to function except for the constant interruptions to the program, that caused a lot of heartaches and a constant soul seeking drive for healing and purpose. Something was just so very off about this!

Where was the way out? Where was the way in?

At some point, my desire to be in alignment with the deeper truth took precedence over the functionality of just getting by. I couldn’t take it anymore. When this happened so did the unraveling of my paradigm.

I had to seriously take responsibility for knowing how powerful and important and a part of the whole, I actually was. This has been dispelling the belief so tightly wound into my bones, that I am small and separate therefor I alone couldn’t possibly make a difference.

The other belief I have had to retire is that it is hopeless, too hard or too late to make a difference because the world is so far gone and out of whack.

Relinquishing these limiting beliefs has not been easy. It has meant that I have to actually do the work that my higher self asks me to do. No matter how hard it seems. And this would be easy if not for the ego.

The ego’s job, in my experience, is not to convince me to be ‘full of myself’. Quite the contrary. It is to try and convince me to carry on thinking I am not capable of making a difference, and that I might as well give up now and eat cupcakes. Watch a movie on Netflix. Have a glass of wine. Chillax. Tune out. Carry on. Don’t rock the boat. It doesn’t matter what I do anyway.

The truth, however, is that I am powerful, I am divine, and the universe is absolutely revolving around me. And this is true for each and every one of us simultaneously. The best thing we can do is be full of ourselves. Be fully here, fully responsible for our creations, be fully engaged in making things right between us and all our relations.

There is an ongoing everpresent dialogue between the seen and unseen, between the here and the in-between, and it is only getting louder as we hurdle further out of balance toward the inevitable tipping point that will either destroy or restore us.

And when we consider the quantum reality that “all time is now”, we have to know that it is never too late to step up and participate or to do our part. It is our karmic duty to contribute as wholeheartedly as we can to the healing of the planet and all beings. To live in accordance with the truth of our interconnection and in harmony with all things.

Perhaps it is the bodhisattva spirit in me that feels this way, but to be honest, I think it is the only way to be, responsibly.

As the wise Hiro Boga recently said,

“In my culture [in India] there is a 5000-year-old tradition of working with the subtle energy realms to maintain the harmony peace and stability of the earth and all her inhabitants. I honor that legacy and have contributed to it in my own way for more than sixty years. Doing so hasn’t stopped me from acting to effect change through direct action- far from it- but soul alchemy and subtle energy work are at the root of everything I do in the world. And as I age, they are increasingly my primary mode of activism.

To claim that there is only one acceptable form of activism is to pose a false dichotomy between subtle energy activism and other forms of action directed towards effecting social change. One does not preclude the other.”

I am so grateful to the cultures, and peoples both living and ancestral who understood all along, these spiritual values – to any degree and in every single way. I am so grateful that I was raised with the awareness that this way even existed.

Because it has been painful to me to live in a world where these values are not recognized. Like many sensitives, I recognize that the lack of a coherent or cohesive philosophy that is in harmony with the sentience of all things is a sad thing indeed. I long for a return to these ancient knowings that recognize, honor and hold everyone accountable through our interconnectedness. I long for the masses to embrace the reality of the subtle energetics that affects all things.

And yet, even knowing this deeper truth, in theory, is not enough. We must take right action, remember, learn, and teach each other how to become the subtle activists that can make real and lasting positive change.

So if you, like me have ever wondered where to begin, then I invite you to keep that question alive.

Because simply asking this question is the first and most important step we can take. In order to make any kind of change within ourselves or the world, we have to become aware that a change needs to happen in the first place.

And when we ask the question, “how do we engage with the subtle energies around and within us”, we are already beginning to engage with them.

It is like looking for anything or anyone we have temporarily lost touch with. Because the subtle energy that gives rise to all things is not separate from you. The spirit helpers, guides, and allies who are waiting to whisper guidance in your ear are not separate from you. But if we have not been a part of the dialogue that takes us into this deeper relationship with spirit, nature, each other and ultimately ourselves, then we tend to forget this. They feel separate, far away, unbelievable. I know because I have gone through many phases of my life where I question and doubt.

What if you don’t know how to engage with the subtle energies?

What I know to be true is that these energies are always available. And if we want to learn how to be conscious co-creators, then we need to learn how to listen and remember that this is our birthright.

If we treat Spirit the way we treat any friend with whom we have temporarily lost touch, that we would like to feel closer to, then all we need to do is give them our attention. We call out. We call them by name. We say, “I have not forgotten you. You are important. I would like to connect with you”.

We get into a receptive mode. We wait patiently. We trust they are near.

Consistency is key. We cannot call out once and then give up. We need to engage on a regular basis, be willing to build a new relationship with this sacred part of ourselves that exists in the subtle realm.

This is about learning how to hone our innate intuitive abilities. It is about learning how to trust the ‘imaginary’. It is about remembering our dreams. It is about engaging with nature, with each other, with our own healing journey in a deeper way.

It is helpful to have regular practices, it is helpful to have support so you are not always engaging alone.

When we dream together and validate each other’s dreams, then we rewrite consensual reality. It is essential that as a community we work to shift the paradigm of separation, together.

I have been asking the planet, my guides and the powers that be how I can contribute and be of service and I have never enjoyed the answer. Because it has always dragged me outside of my comfort zone and required greater effort than I feel is reasonable. But I have been listening and the thing I know for sure is that I am being asked to share my stories, to hold space for other people to share their stories, and to create opportunities for education and connection around developing a practice of tuning in and engaging in the conversation. This is the deepest conversation I know of. It is the one that takes place within you, with the god of your heart, with the guides of your soul, with the subtle energies that weave together the material realm in which we live.

This is about finding your own channel, showing up for your truest purpose, doing the healing necessary to clean up the mess we have all contributed to. The individual and the collective are one.

It is time to activate the wisdom keeper within you. It is time for us to collectively remember how to be in right relationship with the world, by coming into alignment with ourselves and each other energetically.

It is time to stop filling our time with busy work and a false sense of connection or productivity. It is time to stop making excuses or hiding behind our hurdles as though there isn’t enough to go around.

There is more than enough to go around it just needs to be distributed more fairly. More abundantly.

Showing up for your highest potential is about learning how to listen in a deeper way. It is about being empowered on your spiritual journey so you can be your own guide to the divine.

No one else can do this for you, and no one can do it alone.

It is up to each of us to claim our sovereignty as much as our sacred unity.

love,

Amanda Lux

 

 

 

“It is possible that the next Buddha will not take the form of an individual.
The next Buddha may take the form of a community- a community practicing understanding and loving kindness, a community practicing mindful living. This may be the most important thing we can do for the survival of the earth.”
– Thich Nhat Hanh

 

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Follow your bliss



Dear fellow dreamers, visionaries, and overachievers, 

If you have ever had an idea you really wanted to bring to fruition, a change in your life you really wanted to make, or some version of a goal you have longed to reach for, then perhaps you can relate to my story.


As I have endeavored to continually follow my soul’s deeper yearnings, I have come to realize that it isn’t always as easy as it seems like it should be. It takes time to manifest. It takes patience and perseverance. And at times it is downright difficult!

But how do we discern whether the struggle is worth it? 

Sometimes we struggle because we think we should do something, and meanwhile, life is pushing us in another direction.

This, I do not recommend.  I do believe that there are some ideas worth pursuing and some best left in the idea stage of course. 


I have come to recognize the difference, in the way an invitation to follow my bliss arises as a physical sensation.  It seems to come from a place beyond and yet deep within me, as opposed to coming from my head that observes what other people are doing and wonders if that is what I should do as well. 

My soul’s guidance often starts out as a subtle feeling in my belly like a little tug. I hear it in my chest like a quiet whisper. A timid little, “what if” that plants itself like a seed in my heart of hearts.

I see it in visions that follow me around all day long, I see it in synchronicities, and in my night dreams. Nudging, prodding, inspiring. 

Taking action on these intuitive nudges takes tremendous faith and effort, however.

It is much easier to blow them off. It is much harder to say yes. Which is why it is good to know that our bliss is not always hanging out on easy street.

And this is something I only recently realized, as I used to have this idea that following one’s dreams should be easy…but I was so wrong!

In fact, once I stepped fully onto my path and made the commitment to myself to follow through, every possible obstacle presented itself. I have had so many barriers to so many of these dreams, both professional and artistic, that I considered giving up almost from the get-go. Every time. 

I’m not sure where I got the idea that it would be easy to charge in the direction of my deeper purpose or to “follow my bliss”. But somehow the struggle and diligence and sweat and blood and tears and courageous conquering of my fears really surprised me! 
Oh, the humility it requires! 
The finagling of funds! 
The hours spent in resistance and then in persistence and then in creation mode and re-creation mode!
All the iterations! 
All the self-doubt!
If you only knew how many coaches and healers I have hired, and workshops I’ve taken. All the hours spent at my altar praying fervently.
All the sleepless nights and hours of elaborate daydreaming.
I have worked so hard and yet all along I was (sort of) subconsciously judging myself… for working so hard. 

All because I had this strange idea that, if it was “meant to be”, it would somehow just flow forth like a happy bubbly river into an ocean of abundance. 

But you know, it is only sometimes like this. And often it isn’t. 

This assumption, however, has plagued me for YEARS.
Recently though, a beautiful lightbulb went off inside my head and I realized that it’s not always such a bad thing when shit gets hard. 

Here is what led to my lightbulb: 

I was halfway through my Ashtanga Saturday morning teacher-led yoga class last week. I was struggling and quivering, pouring sweat onto my mat, feeling like I was surely the most suffering person in the room. I was probably swearing under my ujjayi breath. (Like you do), when my teacher paused in her instruction and simply said, “yoga is hard”.

At that moment the whole room collectively sighed with relief. I felt so validated and suddenly so not alone. A new surge of energy entered my body. 

I think it must have come from some secret reserve that can only be activated by the feeling of being “in it together”.
It is the power that comes from commiserating with one’s community. 

Do you know this feeling?

I realized two things at that moment:

One was the metaphor this momentous “AHA” provided, which was that I had been working really hard in my life (not just on the yoga mat) because that is just what it takes to make progress. Not because I was inept. But because doing your soul’s work in the world takes great effort!

‘Following your bliss’ is actually a lot more work than one might think!

Some dreams (if you are so lucky) are going to push you to become something else than you were before. 
Some dreams, when you pursue them seriously are going to kick your ass. 
They’re going to test you. 
They’re going to be harder than you think they should be. 
There will be many moments of frustration and if you’re anything like me, you will try to sabotage your own progress by thinking it should be easy. You will probably assume that because it is so challenging, you might be barking up the wrong tree. But do not be fooled.

Whatever it is your soul yearns for, it is worth the effort it takes to create, to push through, to keep trying. Something magical happens when we keep showing up.

The second realization I had in that AHA moment on my yoga mat was…. it takes a village to raise your vibration. 

We can suffer alone, but why should we?
When we come together for a common purpose, there is so much more energy available. So much more is possible. If you want to make amazing changes in your life, collect other people who are working towards their goals as well. It is important that we rely on each other, lift each other up. 

So just in case you are attempting to uplevel your own life, or even considering following a quiet nudge that beckons you to dive in, I thought I would reach out and let you know it is worth it. 
Begin it. Keep going. 
You are not alone. 
And if it feels hard, terrifying, or impossible then you know you are on the right path, because it should! 

xoxo

Amanda Lux


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Energy Medicine

Energy medicine comes in many different forms and healing modalities. Therefore, there are a variety of definitions. From the polarity perspective, energy medicine is the underlying essence of all healing arts. Lifeforce energy is what connects, animates and vibrates within all things. Energy medicine seeks to balance and return one’s energy to a natural state of flow, releasing any blockages which may give rise to illness or disease.   

Science has come a long way in validating what the ancients knew all along and t
here is a growing interest and demand for deeper study.  I am grateful to have witnessed throughout my career over the past fifteen years, the gradual and continual opening of minds, as the general public embraces “alternative” medicine more and more each year. 

The National Center for Complementary and Integrative Health (formerly National Center for Complementary and Alternative Medicine) has increased its budget from $2 million in 1993 to $130.5 million in 2017 which goes to show, there is a huge shift in the current paradigm of health and wellness. 

The science that seems to be helping this process along has been able to measure astounding things that are by nature, seemingly mystical. Thanks to quantum physics, biophysics, electrobiology, electrophysiology, neurobiology, neuroanatomy,  and more, we are closer than ever to proving the existence of our multidimensional interconnectedness. According to Rodney A.Brooks (who received a Ph.D. in physics from Harvard University), “reality consists only of fields and interactions between fields”. 

In Quantum Field Theory, matter is no longer viewed as being made of solid particles.  At the atomic level we understand that regardless of how solid things seem, the world is made up primarily of space. In fact, if we took all the “empty” space out of the empire state building, what remains would be the size of a grain of rice. A very, very heavy grain of rice. 

And even the so called space between all things is not as empty as it seems. It is, in fact, alive and communicating with all space everywhere at once.

It is mind blowing, isn’t it? 

The old mechanistic perspective that our organs communicate with each other via transmitters and genes, is over.  We now understand that the level of communication between each of our bodily systems is too great to be explained this way when one cell affects trillions of other cells throughout the entire body instantaneously. 

There is an intelligence that orchestrates the functions within our bodies and within the universe that is utterly interconnected.


“If we, on our most fundamental level, are packets of quantum energy constantly exchanging information with this heaving energy sea, it means that all of us connect with each other and the world at the level of the very undercoat of our being. It also means that we have the power to access much more information about the world than we realize. “  -Lynn McTaggart

My interest in understanding how energy works, is what drew me to polarity therapy. It wasn’t enough for me to simply experience the miraculous benefits of active, somatic listening, or hands-on healing. I wanted to know at the deepest level possible how healing worked, and why it only worked sometimes and not others. I knew that if I understood how energy was organized and reorganized by our intention and attention to it, this knowledge would increase my own potency, effectiveness, and capacity to be of service.

Polarity captivated me from the get-go because it encompasses all the principals of healing and wholeness that resonate with me personally while requiring a thorough exploration into the why and how energy medicine works. More than a simple energy based healing technique, polarity therapy is a truly holistic healing modality based on the science of energy both ancient and cutting edge. It is deeply rooted in the foundations of Ayurveda which has been saying for over 5,000 years what modern science is just beginning to validate. In the polarity model:

  • All things are fundamentally made of the same five elements, of ether (space), air, fire, water, and earth. We are elemental beings, inexplicably interconnected to all things.

 

  • We are made of energy just as everything is, which is why energy medicine treats dis-ease at the vibrational level from where the dysfunction arises. In contrast, the allopathic approach tends to treat the symptoms once they have already manifested.

 

  • By focusing on wellness as opposed to just illness, we can put our attention on the whole person, finding out where their greatest resource lies. Rather than simply asking “what is wrong with you”, the polarity therapist wants to know, “what is right with you”. Then we can work to align the system with the vibration of health that already exists.

 

  • Polarity is transpersonal and evolutionary, in its approach. It not only considers the micro perspective of the body and its functions, the psyche, and the emotions, but it is equally as interested in the macro view of soul and the learning and growing we are here to experience.

 

  • Healing is not always the same as fixing. There are no accidents, as everything we attract whether we see it as good or bad, happens for the purpose of growth. Polarity honors the inherent intelligence of each individual and their unique healing path.


In a Polarity session, I tune into the field of energy that encompasses the physical body and extends invisibly beyond it. I can read the health of the whole system by listening deeply to the expression of any one of its parts. I can feel which elements are in tune with the rest, and which are blocking the overall flow. This is not hard to perceive once you learn how to pay attention. It isn’t magic but it is incredibly mystical which is why it is so fascinating to me. 

When we begin to open our minds to the implications of the scientific basis for energy medicine, the possibilities for healing on all levels increase exponentially.

It is my personal mission to be a part of this movement. I have dedicated my career and life path to sharing the powerful potential that lies within us all to live in harmony with our natural environment, to live vibrantly in balance within ourselves and to raise the vibrational resonance of the collective consciousness of which we are all a part.


Amanda Lux

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If you are interested in learning more about how energy works and how you can find more balance, vibrancy, and healing in your life, I hope you will join me at my upcoming FREE intro to polarity class on Thursday, May 10th from 6:30-8  

There will be an experiential presentation, live demo, polarity tea, and plenty of good vibes to go around!
 
Olympia Location (will be given upon registration)
Please register under the category of classes on  Schedulicity 

Bring a friend.
Bring your grandmother.
Come as you are.

I hope to see you there!